I spent the next few months I wish someone would look at me the way my golden retriever looks at pizza shirt mainly just watching King of the Hill and nodding on the couch, often with a space heater warming the area on my foot on which I wore my patches. Some mornings I would wake up from a chemically-induced slumber, realize I still had my foot in front of the heater or still had a piece of the patch in my mouth. Another morning I woke and immediately puked up the handful of tootsies rolls (all I had eaten) from the day before. Man, how did I not overdose?
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Often my friend DJ and I would go on I wish someone would look at me the way my golden retriever looks at pizza shirt walks to the railroad tracks behind my house. [Fentanyl is often referred to as having a grey, cold euphoria vs. the warm color of morphine and her sisters.] I recall how I floated effortlessly across the asphalt as I chewed my (now multiple) pieces of felt patches. “What are you chewing on, man?!” DJ asked, curiously. “ahh! Just some pain patch I found”, I admitted. I told him everything.“Damn.”, he said solemnly. He knew it was bad. He knew of my past recreational use of pain pills. He has watched me snorting blue oxycodone pills, etc.
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We walked up to the hill past my road, turned down I wish someone would look at me the way my golden retriever looks at pizza shirt by the Green Bay apartments where I made my first weed deal and headed towards the cemetery which would lead us to the railroad tracks shortcut. This is the same route my friend and I had made many times with my lovely Copper. DJ and I talked and walked, talked and walked, and I remember little of it. All I know is in my head at the time, they were the deepest conversations I’ve ever had.